Perhaps, there isn’t much wisdom I could bring to the table. Only still a young adult trying to make meaning of this greek-latin thing we call life. But, I have figured out some particulars which of those I share.
From where I stand, and I stand tall, people seem to be living their lives so (un)comfortably. Seeing how everything has been set in our times, I am left dazed and confused. Should we have the perfect face? The perfect hair? The perfect house? The perfect ride? The perfect job? Take the perfect holiday? The perfect friends? Wear the perfect dress? Say the most polite words for polite’s sake? I have this view of society where every construct is so flawed, where people are so dreadful to each other with their lies, projections, adornments and judgement. They appear joyful on the exterior, but there are moments plenty, of insecurities, doubts and weaknesses. Where do these get hidden? Where does fear, anxiety, restlessness, hurt get deposited? Why are we ashamed to be who we are, to feel what we feel? And why are they talked about only in privacy? Are we petrified if people spoke of unhappy things, the world would be dark and negative? But isn’t it already? Where has bottling up of our emotions, suppressing suffering and pursuing passive goals taken us? Isn’t finding one’s truth, and to live from that supposed to be the goal? Or is the measure how well-adjusted we are to the current arrangement of society which dictates our ‘happiness’?
What is happiness anyway! Such a subjective idea and I am so interested in getting to the bottom of it. Silly me, one may say. But I wonder, are we going to be happy only if we are doing things that favour the general tendencies of the world? Or is it something you create within yourself, asking if you are relevant to the world within you or the world without? I had visited the library the other day and started skimming through this interesting book ‘Breakfast with Socrates’ by Robert Rowland Smith. What a title that is! Unfortunately, I couldn’t finish reading the book and oddly enough I didn’t lend it out either, but the book set out to a thought-provoking start. It talked about the basic idea of questioning if you even existed and why you do. If you did do that, that means your existence is indeed, relevant and you need to continue to exist. To probably figure it all out!
Lofty expectations being met seem to resonate with having arrived or having achieved big. And it has always got me wondering why. The general tendencies of this world we live in, the ‘now’, which beckons our humanity and simplicity turn to complexity and confusion. The one who reaches there first, the one who is popular, the one talking about the latest trend, and such. I don’t find this to be any wrong or shallow, even. It’s probably their reality or at least it is their projected reality and is what seems apparent to someone on the outside. But what about freedom, the beauty in nature and its simplicity, what about setting out on an adventure to encounter new experiences with the more beautiful elements that are forgotten, less cared for….I’d like to quote a few solid lines from “Into the Wild” here which has deeply impacted me,
“make a radical change in your lifestyle and begin to boldly do things which you may previously never have thought of doing, or been too hesitant to attempt. So many people live within unhappy circumstances and yet will not take the initiative to change their situation because they are conditioned to a life of security, conformity, and conservation, all of which may appear to give one peace of mind, but in reality nothing is more damaging to the adventurous spirit within a man than a secure future. The very basic core of a man’s living spirit is his passion for adventure. The joy of life comes from our encounters with new experiences, and hence there is no greater joy than to have an endlessly changing horizon, for each day to have a new and different sun. If you want to get more out of life, you must lose your inclination for monotonous security and adopt a helter-skelter style of life that will at first appear to you to be crazy. But once you become accustomed to such a life you will see its full meaning and its incredible beauty.”
When we all start out right at the very starting point, the practice of being transparent, open and honest to ourselves has to be engraved in our minds. We disconnect between the idea of what life should be and what life actually is. When one truly shares, it gives us the courage to be brave about what we are faced with. To be brave enough to tell the world what our experiences are, our summit with mistakes and our ability and desire to want to learn and better our experiences, with every sunrise.
Happiness, pain, ugliness, sadness, regret, guilt, dullness, an off day, cranky, loopy, what you may. These exist. Where such is repressed, it created the big hard world.
There are pressures about tonnes and tonnes of things. Needless to say, the higher your expectations, the more the confusion and dissatisfaction. No matter what we do and how much we try, when we hit the sack, close our eyes and think about our day and life so far, we should be able to be connected with our truest inner selves more than any other attachment, habit, behaviour- for this, we must seek the truth. All we should really be wondering, pondering and reflecting about is how much do we love and how truthful we keep it- L.I.F.E.